A Liar's Guide to the Dreams..

In the dead of the night, the dreams come in one by one. They cling to you with soft acceptance, and they know it all..

These are the dreams which leave a note of remembrance. They cling to our tongues like a bittersweet delight.

They feel familiar, though their flavour melts in the mouth... and taste distinctly unusual.


February 25, 2008

Shuddup Awlready !! I'm Thinking!

Where there is an Emo Kid, there is a little Tag with it.


Life Ten Years Ago


How far do you remember the girl with tightly curled hair who loved fighting with boys and tried to juggle thrust-upon sisterhood and motherhood? My sister. My world at that time centered around her. Silences. Long ones. From me. Screams and catcalls.Ei meyeta boro hoye kissu parbe na. Kissu hobe na, shudhu gilbe. Unwanted touches from strangers in trains/buses/autos. Three-inch high heel was ground on one of their toes. Fights with boys. Torn shirt and bloody lips.
Red lipstick and my experiments with life. Aware that the upper body was not as flat as before. TNT and Gene Kelly. Roshun. Gargi. Abby. Rumela. Lock-and-Key. Sayani's Boyfriends.

Life Five Years Ago

PM's classes. Saru's jokes. Green Benches. S. Gargi and Suchismita. High Priestess ship of Michaelangelo Brigade. The bookworm who loved seeing Father Eaton's face when it broke into a smile. Made him look like a jacket potato about to be peeled. Nihil Ultra. Fights continued. Constant worry over where the fees were coming from and how much every single thing cost. Money. The walks to Sir's place and a shared rum ball because we were paupers. Pujo and Olypub. Getting caught drinking by best friend.


Life Tomorrow

Not very concerned bout it right now. I have stuff to translate.


Five Locations I would like to Run Away To

Goa.

Bangalore.

Hawaii.

Delhi.

London.



Five Bad Habits I have

Only Five?


Too aggressive.

Too messy.

Too open.

Too politically incorrect.

Too outspoken.

Many more I have. As someone never fail to point out.

Five Things I Will Never Wear

I shall never wear nipple rings. There!

Until it is ABSOLUTELY NEEDED or I AM NOT AWARE OF IT, I shall never wear fur.

I shall never wear guilt. I shall shed it as soon as possible.

Or vanity.

And I shall never wear a fake smile when I don't feel like it. I shall never wear rationality around me while I can feel. If that makes me stupid or anything else then I am willing to be that as long as I know what I run after. And no one shall make me believe otherwise. I am happy exactly the way I am. And I WILL NOT change. With all my flaws.


Five Biggest Joys at This Moment


S got through TCS.

The Sister's massaging my aching back as I type.

Andro called five minutes ago.

The Weather.

I am alive. With the adrenaline pumping.

Something to Achieve By Next Year

Happiness. In the form of a lot of things.

Something that Impacted Me Last Year

Andro Left.

What I will Miss About 2007

2007 was probably one of the worst years of my life. Still, I shall miss JUDE. And the time I spent training with Shataaf.

Five things I want to do before I die

Love. Because I know I am worth it.

Study. Because I love it.

Be a mother. Because I know I can bring a life to this world and nurture it.

Do at least Half of the Crazy Wishes I have in my Head. Not keep any regrets there.

Go places. Because I want to see and live free like the Bohemian I am at heart.


I tag nobody since no one tagged me. Did this because I like this tag a lot. Its quite doable and you, reader can do it too. I won't mind. Just tell me after you do so that I can have a peek at it.


18 comments:

Suki said...

Beautifully done. I think I'll do it.

Stanley Ipkiss said...

"Go places".
Sounds the easiest. Is the easiest. One of the toughest to initiate. Responsibilities, work et al.

Liked this tag. Really nice. :)

panu said...

@ Suki - Do it by all means.

Mr Ipkiss - i know. It is. I have however taken the initial step. And if you like the tag, do it!!

weevil girl said...

ill do it. theek?
in a week or two thatis.
:D
and thankyou for comment
ireadyourblogbtw
andnevercomment
im likethat only
:P

panu said...

OKOK. you do please. Its ok. I no mind.

Fantasy Writer Guy said...

Nice! I think your priorities are quite enlightened.

dreamy said...

They destroyed the Green Benches. I dunno WHEN I'll be able to get over the fact and move on with life. :(


Oh, and I did the tag btw. just like that :D

cheers!

WHAT'S IN A NAME ? said...

THE BEST award for this tag MUST go to you.

Phoenix speaks.... said...

I really liked the tag.. did it myself.
Your tag has been beautifully done.. specially the ten and five years back bits..

panu said...

Fantasy Writer Girl - Hehe and people think I am confused!!

dreamy - I got out of college and that happened.

whats in a name - thank you.

phoenix speaks... - oh goody, i go check.

:: Clouds :: said...

"..boro hoye kissu parbe na. Kissu hobe na, shudhu gilbe.."

I say this to my brother everyday.

panu said...

who knows, you are crushing an ego somewhere...

weevil girl said...

isitokif i blogrollyou?

panu said...

its allgood.

kaichu said...

"As someone never fail to point out."

yeah. hate me, why don't you?

panu said...

Its not you. Its someone else.

quietlittleshything said...

aami emokid? baal. was, panu.

was.

panu said...

tui jotheshto emokid.