A Liar's Guide to the Dreams..

In the dead of the night, the dreams come in one by one. They cling to you with soft acceptance, and they know it all..

These are the dreams which leave a note of remembrance. They cling to our tongues like a bittersweet delight.

They feel familiar, though their flavour melts in the mouth... and taste distinctly unusual.


June 03, 2008

Some Trivial Days.

So yesterday was a fabulous day. My Kaka (sort of complicated this. My uncle lives in the same house as me and we are very close... he is my Grandfather's stepbrother's son) turned 35 yesterday and we went out to celebrate with Dadu and Didun (his parents). My Kakima is heavily pregnant, so she could not go and berated us on the phone as we had fun. We ordered food we could not finish and cold drinks because my uncle's a teetotaler. And in the night I went for a bike ride. Just like old times. We had cold coffee at Gautam's at 12 in the night and we sneaked in because we did not want Dadu-Didun to be upset and awake. But they were, and we sang songs and I was thinking of the numerous times Dadu had had me down from a tank, rescued me from a street fight, or played with my GI Joes, and sang songs together like this. My parents hate them, though. For them, my Dadu-Didun are nonexistent, though they dote on my kaka and kakima.

My Dadu died this morning. He left us in his sleep, a half-smile curved to his lips. And all I could think of was that he was planning a baby shower for my Kakima on Friday. I don't think there will be any now.

Rest in Peace. I love you.

16 comments:

rainbeau_peep said...

I'm sorry to hear this. You take care of yourself, and Didun. There's not much else to do but to think of the positives. He died peacefully, surrounded by the people he loved best.

[sorry couldn't take your call. was interviewing someone at the time.]

panu said...

it is all right. I am a little messed up with everyone sending me off to thousand errands.

if said...

**hug**

allicando.

Scarlet says said...

take care of urself....stay happy !!!

Phoenix speaks.... said...

I dont really believe in spirits,but incidents like these make me wonder..maybe his spirit is coming back as your kakima's baby...the best possible baby shower gift..
take care

panu said...

mandy - I love you honey.

Scarlet Says - I take care of myself all the time. I could'nt take care of him, though.

Phoenix - I wish he comes back. I feel sorry for the baby because he/she wont know what a fantastic person he/she missed out on.

March Hare said...

you there. take care. and i mean seriously.

and do call whenever you need to.

just remember me as being there, ok?

< tight hug >

Macadamia The Nut said...

*hugs!*
I wish I could say something adequate.. but death throws me off for reasons I can't say now.

I'm sure he knows how much you loved him! Don't be harsh on yourself.. I don't know if you are.. I am.

panu said...

bimbodyguard - I know chhana. I know.

Macademia - I hope he knows how much.

Phemonoe said...

sheesh!

Macadamia The Nut said...

He does girlfriend.. that he does.
*hugs*

panu said...

phemonoe - Hmm.

macademia - *hug*

fyn scarlet reed said...

This is rather a late comment, but. I am sorry.

My grandfather died two months before i was born. I never got to see him. We have a lot in common, from what my mum tells me, and i feel extremely close to him even though i never saw him. And i miss him very much.

panu said...

hey, my REAL grandpaw died about 1 year before my birth. And my parents said... (in bouts of anger) that I was exactly the opposite of what they wanted. takes all sort i guess.

Heathcliff Ranting... said...

miss you.. and love you soo... coming soon.

panu said...

me too...