A Liar's Guide to the Dreams..

In the dead of the night, the dreams come in one by one. They cling to you with soft acceptance, and they know it all..

These are the dreams which leave a note of remembrance. They cling to our tongues like a bittersweet delight.

They feel familiar, though their flavour melts in the mouth... and taste distinctly unusual.


December 09, 2007

Tagged again.

Now Suki does it. Ok I say.... Well this is interesting I guess... Lets see what it entails.

Ten things I'll do by thirty....

First of all... Let me go ahead and panic and say.... OMIGOD I shall be thirty in SIX.... SIX.... SIX... years.... Ooooohkay..... lets see what I want to do.

10. I want to sky dive. Or bungee jump. Or both. Reason? I have vertigo.

9. Get myself a Tattoo. A proper one, preferably from Goa.

8. That means, I will be going to Goa. WHICH is again, on my list. And I want to stay in a shack there... A proper shack.

7. Make love.

6. The previous comment sort of brought us to the eternal question... Who with? I hope to find the right person to do it with. Right, here I would like to comment on the damned luck I have when I go around looking for the right person... and end up with The Jerk. The Other day I was sort of running an experiment of calling people up and asking them... Erm do you think I fall for the Jerk? I ran this through Andro, Kaichu, D, Peep, Manzy... and guess what? Apart from Manzy, all of them agreed that I fall for jerks. Manzy sort of tried to save grace by saying.... "You fall for the wrong type."

I am stupid. I fall for arrogance. Shit.

5. Live. Alone. Without the family. Oooof, I can't take the family no more.

4. Slim down. Yes, I have had enough with the curveball jokes and the bump-and-grind jokes and the big woman jokes.

3. Be romanced. The way I want to be. Proper courtship.

2. Make people look at me with respect in their eyes. Because I have earned it (With Aretha Franklin singing it in the background...)

1. Fall in love.

Yes, I know. I am stupid. And yes, I am romantic, and allthat. But tonight I saw my Adt get married. My best nerd of a friend... head of the high school priss club... the girl I loved because she was the best defensive strategy planner ever. And looking at her today sort of made me realize that time's a-wasting. I went to the party for a few hours.... because I could not bear not to go. And when I was coming back.... Sayani was in the car with me, staring outside... her eyes were blank. I knew what she was thinking... I was thinking the same thing....

What am I doing?

Its such a question of a question for a girl to see someone she loves fall in love and marry. It makes her biological clock go CUCKOO-CUCKOO-CUCKOO within her soft shell. I wish I was not sentimental. I wish I was not this nyaaka. But it DOES NOT HAPPEN. Really. It makes me wonder even more What the Effing Hell am I doing with my life and is it worthwhile?

Yanyway.... back to my post.

10 things I should be grateful for....

These are not marked... simply because they have no right or left order.... no priorities. Because all of them are sort of equally important.

  • My school. And my college. And my University. I respect you, I love you. You gave me build. I do not know how I would have survived some years without your grace.
  • Friendship. They have lifted me up when I was in need. They have sheltered me when I was weak. I cannot tell you how much I adore you.... but you know who you are and what you mean to me for simply being there... be it on the other end of the phone, or the other side of this world. For those moments of demolishing a tuna sandwich together, or loitering around in search of kaash phool, or drinking and singing at Oly, or walking miles and miles anywhere... with no direction home, or working together in utter silence, feeling the presence of the other right beside me.
  • My room. Its me. Its mine. Its all I have. I can make it or break it as I want to. It does not reject me.... ever. It makes me who I am... and I mess it up as much as I want to. Its my mess and I love it. Aamar ghore aami raani. And my pets who adorn it. I love my Ghotu. Oolikibaajepakhilebaba!!
  • My books. Beautiful... you are. All of you. I love you to the point of obsession. I adore you... I worship you. You are what I look for in the end of the day...
  • Monty Python. Terry Pratchett. Neil Gaiman. Alan Moore. Borat.
  • The Sister. Though she was a result of Absolute Bloody Carelessness in the Parents' part, she gave me a lot. She takes a lot too, but thats for another post when I am pissed with her. Right now I am wearing a little pearl pendant she gave me once. Its beautiful. And she saved for months for it. Makes me want to think sometimes. About me. About her. About how I would stop myself from beating her into a pulp.
  • Andromeda. For giving me grace. And for the walks.
  • Kaichu. For never mincing the truth.
  • Pablo. For scolding me, fighting with me and for giving me long lectures.
I tag others. Ruby-at and Heathcliffe deserves it.

14 comments:

rainbeau_peep said...

mairi. u think i'm not being honest when i tell u ur an idiot? how hurtful of u to disregard my abuses.
also. notice how out of the 10 things u wanna do by 30, 4 have to do with falling in love, finding a man, settling down .. the whole shebang.
mairi. tor jodi aami shaadi.com e profile na tulechhi. tui dyakh ebar. eto ichhe to lojja kisher sala? hajar hajar people are meeting hajar hajar other people and falling in love okhaane! amar nijer profile chhilo, i kid u not!

aar word verif is giving me veelcc.

maane, ki bolbo. jhulonto bhNuri.
ami ei tag ta korbo na. bhishon depressing. 30 to ei aaj baade kal. :-[ aar things i'm grateful for e aaro onek beshi blank thaakbe amar ... some things ... circumstances won't let u talk about .. because they aren't there any more ... but you're still grateful for what was ... baba. ki baje boka. i geddit. is wod imma sayin.

ruby tuesday said...

chol goa jaai. ekkhuni.

panu said...

@ Peep - dekh ei jhulonto bhnurir part ta amake bolish na... same case edikeo. however, ore amar chaap ta ei je ami prem korte chai. PREM. ar pliz... shaadi.com er result was the last to last post. Mairi, ami ki dekhchhi na money korchhis???

Tar upor dekh be korar aage ekta akash patal knapano prem na hole amar life ta thik jombe na... tai.....


RT - Ma, chaw jai. tui ar ami... Ar baki sakkale harami.

sandman said...

sad mairi...been there done that.

I have to get my ducks in a row.

panu said...

quackpot shaala.

rainbeau_peep said...

jodi tor duck shuney keu naaaaa asheyyyyy, tobe ekla cholo rey!

sorry. I kinda had to.

I'm very embarassed, promise.

panu said...

se to bujhtei parchhi tui embarassed. Mawron!

Sam said...

duronto list... bujhte parlam na list ta pore moja laglo naki comments pore.. kintu bhalo laglo... :)
chaliye jao.. aar tomar khoj shofol hobe!! :)

panu said...

:D

ashakori.

Sam said...

arre tension nahi lene ka....

panu said...

sirf dene ka....

Suki said...

:runs away from the whole prem juggernaut: am happily in wuv with my Baby, thankyouverymuch.

Nicely done tag, girl. You gotta make sure you know who you're falling for before you fall for 'em though.
Oh, and I didn't compel you to do it - just said you could. Now don't make me sound like one of those "DO IT OR ELSE" people!!! :puppy eyes:

gah, I make no sense.
G'nite.
:snore:

panu said...

:P

heeheehee.

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